Love is what i've no idea of.. 谁可以告诉是什么感觉

Who to blame.. Myslef.

Wenesday- Outing
Met Weijun,Jinnjuan,Bryan,Alex,Zoey,Weiquan and Casper yesterday. its been so long since we last gather .







i deserve what i get? Yes. But what to do. Workhard!
Well. Let me tell you my result , I had to retain next year.I had no choice but to do so.
I am very super disappointed with this kind of result. Although i had already give in my very best for E-O-Y. But still my Class test,Mid-year, They pull me down. Sorry Mdm Rosia(form teacher) I knows.. It will be a better choice for me. I am satisfied w. my EOY results as i tried my best. I just have to do better for next year.
:To those who are preparing for Sec 3 , Please do your best for your Class test,Mid-year.Even if you thinks that CT&MY, isn't impt. Let me tell you,Yes.it's impt.It's 65% of your Overall.
Dont just charge for EOY, It wont helps..
When i first got my result i had the intention of dropping to NT. giving up..
,But lastly i choose to retain because i know i can do better for NA. (& have a better cert in the future, to have a bright future.)
Sorry, Shermaine, Agnes,Guiluan,Amelia,Serene. i cant grauratte with you guys alrdy.
Nextyear, i'll be working hard with Rennie,Charlane,Wenli,Xuanwei,Kelvin in 3N4.
... Principle had open a new class ,3N4 nextyear, Because alots of us cant get promoted into Sec4N. Total up,there'll be 30+ peoples staying back in 3n4 nextyear.

To let me have a better result nextyear, i have to do somethings now. Well, I have to put away my relationship, Give up my dance, Not able to use internet. Lastly, i had to give up on my modeling stuffs nextyear, hais.(Sorry,Shihui.I can't be able to join you alrdy.)
To ensure that i wont get distracted by all this.In order to give myself more times to recaps on my studies. I have to give up on all these although its my interests ,it isnt impt anw. Lastly, i have to delete away this blog. But , i'll let it remain its way.
I promise ,i'll be back blogging on 2011, one year later. /Maybe i wont blog much either.
Sorry- readers,

Bye!

Bom Bom pow. Dance to the beat.

Goodmorning!I want t swim in the blue sea later on! SISTERS.I feels like lying on the beach with those sands all over my body :D Whoohuu~ ,cya girls later. Bye. (Contact me through phone on these following days; 22,23,24.)

Ladies! Tmr.Tmr tmr! Through the Daylights & Nightfalls.I'll make sure that tmr's chalet will be a fun one. 'Haahas.

He wont knows, Nahhs.He'll never know! It'll all be kept between myself and Sists. I love you still.. i'll never let you know & let you go.
Sisters : Single became our life. We do have secrets between one another.
They ruin our bgr/s life.They've made our heartbeats stopped ,Stolen away our breath. But still we love them. I,love him.I can never love another even how i've tried.whatever.Maybe that's why i love him from the start ,i've set myself in too deep.We're all the same. Same feeling,same troubles, same life stories. That's why sister,We're meant to be tgt. Sharing our troubles & worries. As those tear sheds...hearts shuttle
Even if he does, nothing can alrdy be done now.Only if you erase my memories & minimize my hurts.But what about the scars ? It's still there,THERE.

Everything comes with a reason, doesn't it?

(Dance w, me. Dance in the reality w,the melody ! ahhh a haaa aahh!)
10 of -us ,We called Sisters. True one, after many ups and downs.
Readers : Watch it. I Like this! (They really enjoying themselves down there, the kids are adorable too!)

Summary of my thoughts, Days of thinking. -Joey, hold on.
Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.-- Yvspecial-joey@BS

Every day is a new day. Every hour is a new hour. Every second is a new second. Every moment is a new moment. We can't go back into the past so there's no point in living there.
Many of us carry a lot of unnecessary baggage with us everyday. What happened yesterday is gone forever. Positive and negative.

Allowing yesterdays worries to affect today, places us in a repetitive cycle. We see our problems as too big, so instead of finding a solution we make the same mistakes over and over. Instead of talking about how many problems we have we should be talking about the solutions to those problems.

We all have problems. That's just the way it is. The difference between happy successful people and unhappy depressed people is that the successful look for answers. Successful people look forward to challenges. They know that every time they solve a problem they get smarter. By taking these challenges head on they are strengthening their minds.

People feed off of each others emotions and thoughts. Keep your thoughts positive because whether you know it or not, you have an affect on everyone you meet. Be sure that you leave a positive impression where ever you go. Don't put your problems on someone else.

Today is a new day and it should be a positive one.
-Have a great day and remember to spread the message of positive thought with those that you meet.

Peoples, Must watch this touching video before you go off. The love between a Male to a Female dog.

HEY! Sorry for leaving my blog so dead.
Few days ago,Has been burning mid-night oil for studies.
Rushing over subjects, Thanks Shermaine for humanities.
& Alexis for math.
Hahs, I has been filling my stomach with Cookies & Chips , Coco stuffs. During exam period.
Gained weight D; ,Have to shed away some fats during hoiliday.
(...)

(My favorite!!)
Followed by this , Shin brought it back from Jap.

(Pure chocolate) Joey's 2nd favorite.
Have to said bye to all this chocolate's stuffs before i turn into a big fat Arssss! D;

Guess how heavy am i now!
(...)
Chocolates reminds me of THIS.

This is what olive chew bake for me during my B'day.
Her first baking, It taste Real nice. &That's the first and last time i had it.
(Can i have more.. ? ) P: ... ...

不知是否我变成回忆，我只想一个人静静不是逃避。
最近我有很多很多心事，你们有没有发现? -我有点怪怪的。' L'
Take note : I'm changing Link soon when the new one is done.

I'm @ Haagen-Dazs with Koey ,Tess ,Uncle Lawrence.
After that went to buy my stuff , Brought one tube of Gucci perfume.Smell nice.
(...)

My sweet ice-cream / Brownish.
(...)

AhMmm.. 'Yummy!' Wanna have some ?
(...)
Random photograph.
我好想你。


好哟!
Bye bi(wj) ,Goodnight readers.

May not be posting much nowadays, Too lazy to switch on my computer to even update my stuff.
Sorry peoples.
it's better to be lost, sometimes it isnt good to hold on to things that belong to the past.
Lols! Watched the proposal with Char , It's a great show.Both thumps & feet UP !
I comment : It's better the watch with your beloved as there's many touching happenings.
'Final destination' Regretted watching. There's too much gory scene & this is the main things that it's focusing about.
I want to watch the ugly truth ,NEXT. Pending.. ..
This month spent lots on movies.

Well ! got to post up some photographs which is taken on the Ktv session ,With Alexis & Weijun.


Goodnights ! muacrkks. 0909-09, Did you receive my Sweet & mushy messages? 常常久久。

So cold.. the coldness made our breath visible! Today's s'pore is somehow like genting.
Was drinking milo the whole day.
Raining since mid-night,was shivering after my shower.
As i reached home around 2am. insomnious
Im down w,flu now due to the lousy weather. Cough*
Exam's over. Im still figuring out my chem;chemical bonding, Balance.. Gosh!
Nitrate acide.. blah.. blahs
Shin called me out for dinner later on, Teehees!
Anyways, Thanks for the Presents; Tweety,Piglet,Bears,Roses & Balloon ;Shin & Company's & x.Sher& Company's. & Lastly pizzahut treat.
They can't find BabySlyvester therefore they brought me Tweety.
Shihui,The piglet & you looks more alike! *roll-eye*
Shermaine,that lovely balloon is still flying up on my cling now. &it's really embrassing carrying it all over marina square.HAHS!

Tmr i'm meeting Nickotin for movie ;Final destination @Ehub ,Double Yeah-ness!
As I wanted to watch it long aqo with Charlane, Cant get in as it's M18. But finally.. No problem ,i just have to get myself a mature Top & bottom ;Easy task!

Bye-readers.
Mood :Hyper!
Val.Lost the sign of you since that unpleasant argument.Sigh I rmb you once said there's something tht you wanted you pass it to me at my hse downstair.Sorry for those harsh words that day as im nt in the mood.i didn't went down as im doing my project.

回到原点。 这次他真地离开了。
有人曾经对我说过: 不曾等待没有希望的过去。网新的方向看，
大步的往前走，但在遇见未来之前我们重视不经意的思念起曾经。。
偶而也会关心他过得好不好,仅此而已,只是关心不是等待。
等待没有希望的曾经而是去等待下一次动心的机会,下一个对的人 等待未来。但没有也无所谓因为一个人也有一个人的精彩。爱情不是一却
你一定要幸福, 加油！

L ,no more. It's too late.

15th B'day. Will be posting more of it sooner or later ,when i've the time to.
Thanks for those who wished me on my B'day.My phone is spamed with smses.Overwhelm w, the presents too. Thanks Babys.
Shin's Kiki.Hope nothing goes wrong between us,If there's, in that case, I've nothing left to say but sorry.You have lots of girls after you ,don't you think so? &PLEASE CUT DOWN ON YOUR SMOKING RATES.Or else I'll smack your butt.Hao luhhs, Goodnight.*晚安*

Finally done my revisions,my eyes are shutting down.

Weixin for your info Shin is currently studying @ Nan yang poly. Shin whong ,Korean.nt S'porean.Is he someone importance that you're looking for? If it is,I may can help.
Anonymas, Who are you to judge me? If i am a slut,what makes you? If you do have anything wrong with me just come straight to me in future.Thanksyou.Because,I see no point typing all those words,behide the computer which is making you refreshing it everyday,min & sec hunting for those replies. I don't cares if you're the only person or not. C'mon, please be mature about things.This is my blog you can said anything you want as it doesn't concern me but no vulgarity here, please.

Jeslin ,idk.
Anonymous ,A boy-friend.
Today is Jeffery's day. Happy birthday!
2more days,Dad's B'day.3more days,mine.
i'm dad's biggest present isn't it? :on 22ndAug1994
Not been online, Rushing for 24th's exam. Sorry, be right back.
Hey! Seven-month gate opens tonight. Careful.Takenote not to say this word
‘鬼!’

My horoscope:
A potential sweetie needs to know you're still interested. Make it clear to them!
Ya, it's quite true at this moment.
'I dont know who's the best for me.'

Gosh! Spent 160$ Ytd on some items with Shin
Must save up now.Sisters is telling me to cuts down on my buying.
But After today i guess, Cause today my lil.Aunt is bringing me to shop for my B'day present.
I'm thinking of wanting a New phone? Or some expensive clothing?

Fought with Val Last night.About why our Smses getting Lesser/Colder== I told you I hate Smsing and I mean it! Im lazy to reply a single Smses.When im together with Sists.I'll happily hack caring my dear phone. If ur Sms is so important,Cant you just fucking give me a call ? You know,This is me! Dont you ?
But,We're okay now.And this is us.
Actually I'm meeting him today but my aunt... Sorry bro.

Shopping!

Bugis > Vivo > Ah man's hse > Tiongbaruh plaza > Dinner > Homesweethome
Mahjiong @ahman's hse, I won the first round
I was late ytd ,Cause my eye is infected. I think it's because of the haste recently.
My Face ,Skin & eyes is very sensitive. That's why i avoid using foundations,makeup etc.
If i use them the next day,you wont be seeing me outside. I'll be at home scratching my face ;Racious will come and attack me.
Dont be surprise if you saw me wearing sunglasses outside ytd,
I'm not being box or rob by robbery. hahas,
Bye. ' i'm going off to meet my dear Shin for my dinner treat at Jade restaurant, My First & earliest B'day present. Thanks bro.

Saturday, ;Me , Char , ah man , Sher , Wenli. (I'm short of one photo) w.sher Upload soon I makeup for Char , Sher makeup for Wen ytd. I'm quite satisfied w. my makeups






,Bye loves. Saiyonara

Was @ Mellissa's place early on. Mahjiong with Weijun,Liying,Mellissa.
I won 2 rounds, And Mellissa is the winner of today. GOSH! I came out with my lazy-bones today,Sleepy. Sorry for those late smses replies. Weijun went off to edmund's place. I back 800+ ,Glen came over.He broke down,due to some bgr probs. I felt ...as i cant help much either than comforting him.
There's no point crying over a spilled milk.

历史不能从演，他变成了记忆里最深刻的回忆。

(...)
Sorry Val. i didnt go & see his liondance compt. missyoubro
Ytd ,Meet Agnes@ tamp inter. Stalk me ?
Went tm to do my tops.
Rennie came over ,Headed to foodcourt to have our Lunch/dinner > theBluez for my rings, while we're waiting for Charlane.
20 mins later..headed to somerset ,meet up with Char.
& Aqain this time someone wants treat us for pool ,But we dont want.
Off to cenilesure ,For Kbox.
Char & that Morethanwords shuai boy fang dian tgt ,
i guess we'll go cenilesure 'more often' le,Hahas.
Night time, Went 800 plus+ aqain.
Heart to heart talks, & Headed home around 11 plus.Loves!


(Me,Agnes,Rennie)

Oldfriends, Buddies.I miss them so much! I miss those times.. Those times whereby all of us have to worry about nothing and meet every single day just to have fun. Every single days are filled up with exciting and fun activities. Those days are probably one of my happiest moments in my life. I really wish for a big gathering soon. & I miss those laughters thats brings my moods up up. 'Did you miss my laughting gases too ? ' i guess you did.

Goodmorning ! Wenesday
Today i didnt go sch ,It seem bored as charlane didnt go too.
As im totally stressed up by works & projects.& I took one day-off.
Therefore, I went for a jog in the park in the early morning ,Loves fresh airs.Breath of fresh airs make me so relieved
Hmms.. reach home bathed baby ! Finally i've the time to bath it, it smells nice nw.

Then , Shin & Peggy came over. As they didnt go for work today.
Hungry! hmms , Went Fairprice. Guess wht we brought .. Crabs !
Planning to eat Fresh chili crabs for breakfast , We'll spent $20 buck for 3 crabs.
Shin do those killing ! & then I realize crabs doesn't bleeds , As I thought It will. So, I stood beside Shin watching him killing its waiting to see those bloods splash out. ' Why no bloods ? ' ==
He laughted.
Hmms! While we both were busying in the kitchen like hell.Peggy was happily outside watching DVDS , She's such a lazyass.
Done,

Joey and Shin's cooking. Yummy!
After eating. I bathed , makeups / dressed.
Out i go ..

,Hoping every morning is as wonderful as this. Relaxing~

Still, my favorite quote(and will never change): Cherish what you have. Because when it’s gone, it’ll be gone forever… I wont be posting much , Goodnight ,Shin & everyone.

Sat ,25
Val isnt free as he's having lion dance compt.
Went Vivo, Cenilesure.
Found some tops at Forever21.
Vivo > Orchard ,There's jamming competition down there i guess.
Me , Agnes , Charlane , Ah soon Agnes 's kor & two others guys.
& Well thanks Soon's treats & movie treats for us.
It was 11 plus
We catch the show ' the haunting ... '
Guess what ? I was smsing then...
I slept in the theater for 2 hours plus.
I woke up , when the show is about to end.
& I only know it's a true story P:

Today , meet valentino out. just 6 hours spent away w , him & he went off to meet his bros. Actually i'm planning to recaps for my studies ,etc. But then , Sisters can't make it by last min.
& I've got makeup class @ night. Therefore , We didnt go far. We went airport for lunch & headed back to tampmall. The last hour , We went to get some of our fashion sences @ TM & CS & T1. Our favorite doing some research on Clothing , Asseseries , Lastly cosmictic ,Etc. He spot some clothing @ the top shop. & He's making every single material in details. Nice one , fashion designer. My fav is the cosmictic's part. There's new products produed by the brand of silky girl if you didnt notice. Sort of a liquid foundation , BB cream. Hmms.. the useage isn't that good.
It's atuaclly a copyrighted from the real BB cream product in japan. Only that it doesnt have UV protection. & the tones isn't that great either.-& i dont put foundation due to skin's allegies
-17 , Jul.08
Gosh ! I'm in love with yellow now.
Thanks for the Pastamania treat ,Jinnjuan.
Meet up w. Zoey & Zoey's frien , Juan , Alex.
It's been ages since i last went out w, them.
& I went pass one shop & i poked one hole on my wallet.
I brought two tops , 90 over plus dollars flew away.
-But it's worth the price

Tmr i'm going library for revisions w , Juan & Bryan.

Having dance class later on @ 8pm - 10pm
I'm back for dance. I bet i'll nt retrait this time round
& obviously my stamina has gone down.
Must be educated in success, Every success have its suffers
Joey, No matters what is it. Hold on !
Everyone has their down falls, But they'll get themselves back in line, when time heals.
Hope you get wht i mean dear.
Gym tmr ? Nafar is coming ==
I wanna grows taller eh ! I've not been growing since the age of 13.
159 short eh? 165cm is my aim D;

Hey! Anw,add me in facebook. I find it complicated while using ,dont you think so?
Nahhs ! Help D: -Ppl want keep up in the trend eh ,hahs
:Cindi_baby99@hotmail.com

Gosh! my weekends is fully packed. Yawns!
-Having some personal makeups & facial lessons w. uncle's gf in the following weekends.

Family & friends is top listed ,i except nothing to distract my life
My feelings are symptoms, my life is danger , my love doesn't matter , Since when life is fair ? Twist doesn't excite me , stay away. I'm difference stop comparing. I'm straight forward, i hate beating around the bush. Be your worse nightmare if you piss me off.
Now , this is just a part of me. i wont care much.
: Don't judge me for wht you've not gone through what i've been
People change ,So do i ? -there's no such thing 'second chance'
I'm happy to be me ,myself.

Ytd went out with Valentino.
without any plans in our head ,last min.
S'pore is so damn boring ~ RAHHS!

Hahs. I was late , 30 mins.
He went UOB first, this blur sotong went one big round.
We went century square for lunch.
At first was quite irritated to think of where to go
But after all it isn't a hard day for us. It's fun
Train down to marine square. walk walk
Went suntec for arcade & followed by movie ;obsesses , Darn nice.
Two thumbs up ^-^ fonia say is so hot down there.
After movie , walked back to marina for dinner @ Asian kitchen.
Then we went esplanade for Art exhibition ,walked pass th dance floor those dancers are so great.
Went for a few mins concert outside Esplanade , it's quite crowed.
She's a bar singer i think , She've a extraordinary great voice & a nice jazz dance*claps*
She made the atmosphere down there so high.
then we walked to the bridge nearby & rest.
Talking abt lots of craps & jokes. He kept on laughting @ my stunded expression
We're hunting for chiobus & weird ppls that walked pass
One Babuseng was so fuckup almost knock into us.
Then.. There's a 10mins fireworks out of the sudden opposite the bulidings. Whao! nice.
Joey love fireworks.
We take walks to whereby the merlion is & we went futher on.
Then looking for cheers / 7 eleven . Guess what ? We walked till Lao ba Sa.
Street night market? Yawns .
& We cabbed home around 2 plus.
Thanks for the day. OWL ! (: -Best friend

Today went meet Rennie & Agnes.i'm late aqain.
After rennie have left when i came. Went shopping with Agnes @ tamp mall.
Tried some tops , Found some of my likings. Got to get it tmr! :D
When trying the cloth
& My dear Agnes told me some issuse of something made me bit mad,Blood boils.. hmms!
Nahhs nvrmind. You're always my dearest, No matter wht's wrong. What's done cant be undone , Just need a method to slove it nw.
I've alrdy got the problem slove ,but must need some of valentino's help. Since he's a designer tht is good in Arts.
It'll be great enought to cover.

I'm clear with myself now , now.
Does romances exist or i have been fooling myself ?
IF ,there is . Too bad , I no longer believes.
I stopped expecting sweet nothings , chocolate ; etc.

Here’s the problem - every woman has a daydream tucked away deep inside.
And even when we eject it from our conscious thought
– it’s still there, lingering - buried deep down.
But then as we entered our teenage years it ju st got worse…movies and TV shows made romance seem like an every day occurrence. [Sixteen Candles, Say Anything, Princess Bride, etc.].

My definition of romance :
An adventure, or series of extraordinary events, resembling those narrated in romances; as, his courtship, or his life, was a romance.
Romance is being in love. Romance is holding each other tight during a thunderstorm. Romance is smelling each other’s skin…not wanting to let go. R omance is making each other laugh. Romance is holding a child’s hand. Romance is cuddling in bed with a good book. Romance is lighting candles. Romance is taking a bubble bath. Romance is passion. Romance is a midnight walk in an old city. Romance is a rushing river, fall leaves and spring flowers. Romance is a mother’s love for her child. Letting go is a romance.Your dance partner is a romance.
Therefore ,
Single or not – romance is all around us, every day.
Think positively , Peoples

If there's one day , real romances really comes towards my direction.
Maybe , I'll still believe.
But not now.
Now in my point of view there's no long lived relationship
it's just puppy love -No offenses
Till , i'm having a stable life & a much more mature mind.
Therefore ,it'll be a few years down the roads
Studies bring me futures ,
But does romances bring you futures ?
To me; No longer yes.
Now, Some says ; Both importance ? (Previous me)
Let's see then~
Girls, be more independent,
For wht go worries abt r/s stuffs?
When it's time , It'll comes。。
(My advise, Yours decisions)
It's impossible to holds on to things that's not yours ,
If you do. It'll also goes somehow, someday
Don't ask me further on than this ,Cause i dont know too?
18th ,I've stopped down here ,waiting for th curious answer too.

也许你以后嫁的人不会是你一身中最爱的人
也许你以后娶的人不一定是你最爱的
不过他们一定是最爱你的人。